March 31, 2010


When it comes to picking a graduate school, what is more important? Specific program, or everything else?

Will I hate living in Salt Lake?

Will I regret not being with him [I don't want this to be a factor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]?

Is the money worth it?

Do I risk being at a computer instead of in the field because it's "cutting edge"?

Is one peer better than three?

Am I being too impulsive?

Have I already made up my mind, but pretending I didn't for the sake of argument?

[The scary part is, I think the last one is true...]

PS: Type Tony Bennett & The Count Basie Band into your pandora and fall in love.

March 29, 2010

Everything. Hurts.

Aching. That's the only true way to describe this pain. It is not that anyone has done anything wrong, or that I have physically hurt myself, it is that I ache. My heart, specifically, aches. See, he left yesterday. And for the first time since we've known each other (360 days, or thereabouts) I don't know when I am going to see him again. True, he is moving to my parents home town. And true, there is a good chance I might go to school there too. And truer still, I am in the process of seeing if I too can move back home this summer. But none of that cures the ache. This emptiness I feel inside. Knowing that he is not going to be there when I wake up, or to walk to school with me in the rain, or to cook dinner with me, or to sit with me while I study for chemistry for four fucking hours in the library, or grab a beer after class. He is not here anymore, and I ache. I wish he never had to go. But part of me wish he never came. I didn't feel this way until he came and left. I miss him.

March 19, 2010

1 day. 3 hours. 12 minutes.

...until he gets here. And it couldn't be going by any slower. I guess it's time to make a list of things I need to do, because it seems that whenever I make a list of things to do, I don't EVER have enough time to do them all. Perhaps it will help make time fly...

  • 9:10-11:45
    • Finish this blog
    • Chemistry lab write-up
    • Volcanology lab
    • Hand in Earth History lab
    • If time: chemistry practice problems/review for test
  • 11:45-12:50
    • Chemistry lecture
  • 12:50-1:35
    • Get lunch
    • Eat lunch
    • Work on Volcanology lab
  • 1:35-7:00
    • Finish/hand in Volcanology lab
    • Chemistry practice problems??
    • Clean house
      • Laundry
      • Dishes
      • Bathroom
      • My room
      • Nap??
      • Dinner
  • 7:00-12:30
  • 12:30-9:00
    • Sleep
  • 9:00-11:50
    • Clean more house
      • Wash couch covers
      • Wash floor
      • Any dishes left over?
      • Pick up living room
      • Wash sheets
      • Pick up bed room
  • 11:50

March 17, 2010

Just in time for the holiest of holiest days: St. Paddy's

This song just came up on Pandora. They're not Irish, but they sure are good!

So happy Saint Patrick's day, everyone. And once, even though I'm living in Boston, I'm missing it. Three years running. I suck at being Irish.

March 14, 2010

Rain rain...

...go away...

ps, got into grad school and they want to pay me 10 grand.